Diary Of A Broken Hearted Girl

Hi my name is..it doesn’t matter, I’m just a girl who fell in love with a boy and that boy left me on the floor

with my shattered heart in my hands 

This story isn’t about a sad girl - I mean yes she is sad , but she’s also a strong girl who got tf up because

falling in love with a boy and falling on the ground because of a boy and staying there was not her story.

Her story is about how she’s trying to get back up, but still hasn’t figured out how. 

I have so much anger towards you because I gave you all of me. You pretended it was a safe space and I allowed

myself to fall in love with your two toned brown eyes and our dance parties in the kitchen and your I love yous.

In every Tesla I look for you in every song I hear you singing, in every dance I run to grab your hand, but then I

remember I’m dancing on my own.

I thought it was a safe space and it wasn't. It isn’t. I hate knowing this broken up version of you.

Who are you and what have you done with the person I fell in love with? How easily you forget about me.

Like I was nothing to you, but you were everything to me. I thought I was everything to you. The perfect love story.

Maybe that's why god made you leave, he knew I would love you too much. Way too much. 

I stopped talking to you and now I talk to this as a broken hearted girl trying to heal a broken heart. I won’t allow my

world to end because of you, a boy.. I workout, I eat, I focus on my career and God. Right now I float between a real

and fuzzy haze called life walking as a bystander next to my body. I know she's waiting for me to return patiently,

But for now I keep doing the motions until they turn into something I feel. Where my mind isn’t consumed by you.

When will I stop loving you and get my heart and brain back? As I wait for father time to heal me I'll keep living

because life goes. Which life will I choose to live?

It’s time to change the narrative in my brain. To who I am! To who I could be. 

This is not my first heartbreak and it won’t be my last

So I say to you : Good morning it’s time to WAKE TF UP!

 

 Love, 

 a Broken Hearted Girl